Start from Where You Know

December 2006, I hit a wall. A hard wall. I spent so much time working up the ladder in Reality TV, I didn’t think about what would happen when I got to where I thought I wanted to be. Finally I was a story producer. I had more responsibility but I wasn’t in charge. I spent hours satisfying the bigwigs at the upper level. Did I want to reach that upper echelon where I called all the shots or was that delusional? Afterall, the executive producers still had to answer to the networks. And weren’t we all slaves to the ratings? Did I even want to stay in Reality TV? Not knowing where I wanted to go, tired, and stressed to breaking, I let everything drop. Another story producer wrangled into my position. I felt betrayed by my boss, deflated and defeated. That’s what happens when you bounce off a wall, you fall to the ground. But there’s always one part of me that doesn’t let go entirely, and it’s that part of me that starting adding books to my Amazon wishlist like, Secrets of Millionaire Woman and How to Pitch Like a Girl. I wanted power back in my life and I was searching for ways to get it.

I’m always open to spiritual adventures but at that point, I was desperate. I didn’t see the point of anything. I wanted control back in my life. I had given too much away – sacrificed too much of myself and my integrity for my so-called career. I got a massage at one of my favorite places in Pasadena. My massage therapist told me about a shaman that built an energy shield for her. She said he literally built a shield where she could feel her spine being supported. Having a spine, I thought, was what I needed.

What I got from Vinny, the Shaman, was an intense energy clearing. He relayed some information, not all of which I felt was one hundred percent, but most importantly out of it, he told me about my spirit guides. He also recommended a book called The Path to Empowerment. Empowerment was what I needed. Knowing that I was tired and befuddled, Vinney’s parting words to me were these, “You have so much to offer.” I shrugged my tired shoulders and thought, “Yes, but what is it that I want to offer?” That question was the first step I took in figuring out what I truly wanted to do with my life.

Following Vinny’s suggestion, I got Path to Empowerment. The Path to Empowerment it turns out is to know we are in charge and we create everything in our lives. We need to watch our thoughts because with them, we create our reality. I just had my first lesson in manifesting.